Hi. My name is ????, and this is my site. I'am more of experimenting so please if you get bored know that I'am improoving. I'am only 14 y-old and alot of stuff have happend to me. Not neceseraly all bad, but not all good either. I just stared high school and so far it is preety kewl. My ma is a secratery their and it does come with it's advantagess and some disasvantages. Like for instence she knows all of what I do at school and when I get into trouble she is the first to know. In the past I have had some hard times and I thought they would never get better. But now at this year it is getting better, and I plan to keep it that way. I used to have a problem of cutting my self.Yeah I know i've heard it all....but I actaully thought it would take the pain away and surprisingly it did, or so i thought. But it only made things wores. One day i got scared cause i read an article in one of my mags. It was about this girl she always cut herself and one day she was sleeping and when she woke up she was laying on her bathroom floor in a puddle of her own blood. In her hand she griped a knife. She stared to cry and got the currage to tell her ma, and she whent to get help and she hasn't done it any more. So I didnt want that to happen to me so I confrunted my ma and she cried and cried she didn't understand why I would do somthing like that. She sees it every day at my school. Lots of kids getting counsling because of it, but she never thought I would do it. (thats the problem with parents they think that since they've done all they can that their is no reason for dissapointments in their childs lives, well heres news for you 'rents their is a hell of a lot going on in your childs life and not all of it has to do with sex, drugs, or drinking) My ma told my dad, witch i beged her not to. Since I am already afraid of him as it is.(childhood memories) He gave me a long speech on how it was wrong and how I could get gang green (a diseas were your cut gets infected and the doctors can do what they can but someitmes its not good enough so they have to take your arm acording for it not to spred threw out the rest of your body. After hearing my dad cry him self to sleep that night I figured it wasn't worth hurting the people I love and losing my arm over it. I never think about it unless me and my ma get in a fight and i feel like i've faild her because I'm not like my purfect brother. ( i guess theirs always one screwd up kid in the family)But N-E ways that was last year and this year I have a cute boyfriend and my grades are good have some good friends that I know I can trust with my life. And so this is my home page and I'll try and keep you up dated about my year. I guess you could say it's my diary and if you have any problems then just write me a letter or put it on the message board and i'll try to help the best I can. (you should try this to, make this the best year possible, forget all of the bad in the past) Oh and if I can't find away to write my feelings down i'll writ a poem about them.